in the meanwhile i accept the whole situation of being a student. this doesn’t mean i like it, but… it should be okay for the next weeks and months, so why bother about the time later?
yesterday rahel and i went into the cinema, really nice movie… but i always had to think about him. it’s such a pity that my mind’s not able to forget him or stop my soul to be disappointed, if he says something i don’t want to hear. such things like… “no… i’ve to go to the other ball… and you know that i don’t like such events…”
it’s mindblowing to be striked down by little words like these. devastating… but hey… old loves they die hard, don’t they?
