well, i had a lot of fun tonight. it was a feeling of coming home again. the whole bunch of relatives came up to our traditional visit from “nikolaus”… in some ways he’s like the world famous santa. he has a white beard and some sack full of nuts, chocolate and some other kinds of sweets or presents.
but the original idea behind our nice mr. nikolaus is based on this bishop from… myra… he was a very nice man and cared about others very much, helped them out when they needed something… not only a cup of coffee or something like this… he helped the people to survive under the hardest conditions. something like bred for the poor ones.
it really makes me think about other people… especially when i look around and recognize what a pleasure our lifes are nowadays. but still most of us don’t seem to be satisfied. sad.
right now i’m listening track 3 of the garden state soundtrack… i need this chilly feeling to come down and don’t be so… maybe you really can say… depressed. i mean… me and my ex we talked for a long time last weekend and we decided to give it another chance… but only something very open… just like a weekend-relationship… and now… he couldn’t find time to give me a call… on the one hand i’m really worried, maybe somthing terrible happened… but i know him for so long and so i’m really fierce on the other hand.
it’s just like the last weeks in our fucking relationship. i worried to death and he enjoys himself. well, since i don’t really know anything and i believe in the good in all people (i know it’s naive)… i only can wait.
maybe it’s easier to forget all those wasted feelings for him. it would be better for me.
but love… love is a really bad thing. so people… better fall in love with someone who shows you how much you mean to him or her.
